Se pare că orele târzii îmi sunt prielnice și totodată dăunătoare psihicului. La aceste ore iau atât cele mai bune decizii cât și cele mai lipsite de neuroni.

  Trăiesc stări contradictorii și de foarte multe ori am nevoie de inspirație. ( in the end, who doesnt?)

Am împlinit, din nou, 20 de ani.
Vreau să îmi fac o listă de lucruri/fapte/ stări de îndeplinit, făcut și deținu, dar simt că nu am nicio șansă să o duc la bun sfârșit. 
Totuși unul dintre acestea vine natural:  sunt fericită, e în firea mea.
Pe de altă parte, vreau ca în acest al doilea 20 de ani pe care îl am, să reușesc să uit. E în firea omului, deci nu va fi atât de greu.
În al treilea rând, vreau TOTUL, de la toți și toate. Rămâne de văzut cum am să obțin. Încă nu  mi-am dat seama metoda de parcurs să ajung la acest scop, dar nu e totul dat pierzaniei. Va veni și ea.


Merg la somn.
Vise frumoase!

True story

"There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it."

Laurrell K. Hamilton

How, if some day or night, a demon were to sneak after you into your loneliness and say to you: "This life, as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more; and there will be nothing new in it, but every pain and every joy and every thought and sign . . . must return to you—all in the same succession and sequence—even this spider and this moonlight between the trees, even this moment and I myself. The eternal hourglass of existence is turned over and over—a grain of dust!" Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: "You are a god and never did I hear anything more godlike!" If this thought were to gain possession of you, it would change you as you are, or perhaps crush you. The question in each and everything, "Do you want this more and innumerable times more?" would weigh upon your actions as the greatest stress. Or how well disposed would you have to become to yourself and to life to crave nothing more fervently than this ultimate eternal confirmation?

Friedrich Nietzsche, Gay Science